This is the time of year when many are reflecting on the past year and looking ahead to the new one. While I do think we should live in a state of wanting to do things better all year round I also think it is healthy to take inventory and look back. Taking the time to see where I was successful and where I need improvement has always been a good thing for me. While I may not always keep a "resolution" for the entire year, having a goal I am working toward keeps me organized and focused.
As I have been reflecting on the past year I was struck with how little seemed to happen in 2014. There are some people who would think that if BIG things are not happening; if you are not moving, not having a baby, not changing jobs, not revealing a huge life change God is asking you to make then you are not on fire for God and you are stagnant. If you haven't met anyone like this, just wait because you will. What I love the most about the verse above (it's one of my very favorites) is it encourages the idea of waiting. It is a reminder to not run ahead of God. Waiting is just as much an action as running only one can have more dire consequences then the other. "When we rush God's plans or do things our own way, we end up defeated. But waiting on Him will ensure our victory and keep us from foolish acts (Prov. 20:22)" ~Charles Stanley.
Ben and I have spent most of 2014 waiting...and I believe we will spend at least some of 2015 waiting. I cannot share why we are waiting or what we are waiting for but I can say that while we have had victory so far in the wait, it has not always been easy. There have been times throughout the year that we almost ran ahead of God because we were letting our emotions take over. Waiting on God is not easy when we are desperate for change. It requires a lot of prayer and a lot of wisdom, which thankfully God gives liberally to those who ask (James 1:9). During the wait I can testify that God does renew our strength. It is a blessing during these times of waiting to be able to claim God's promises and know that they are true. I am thankful for the waiting of 2014 and the seemingly boring year with no big happenings. God has done so much teaching and molding of my heart and I was still enough to hear. I have grown in areas I didn't realize I needed growth in.
What is ahead for the Cyr family in 2015 I do not know...and I don't need to know. The only thing I need to focus on is today. Right now God has given me 1 amazing husband to be a wife to (12 years tomorrow in fact!) and He has given us 7 children to raise for Him and that keeps me plenty busy. I don't need to fill up my time consumed with what God is going to do. While I am excited to see what the future holds, I am content to wait on God to reveal the plan...in His time. I am content to let things happen as He will have and not run ahead of God forcing his plan to happen sooner than it should. It is an indescribable peace and calm when you can let go and let God and if you have not found the ability to wait on God yet, I pray 2015 is the year you do!